January 29, 2015

broken things

God uses broken things. It takes broken soil to produce a crop, broken clouds to 
give rain, broken grain to give bread, broken bread to give strength. 
It is the broken alabaster box that gives forth perfume. 
It is Peter, weeping bitterly, who returns to greater power than ever. - VH

the other day I came across that quote and was blessed. Often I struggle to be okay to be okay with my past, my mistakes, the broken things in my life. I struggle to move on, to continue on. "I make such a mess, why would God want to use me?" I ask myself. "What good am I if all I do is make bigger mistakes?" It binds me. 

But God....God uses the broken things. He makes them whole. He uses them. He makes them beautiful.

You make beautiful things out of dust...You make beautiful things out of us. - Gungor

January 22, 2015

step into light

to trust is to step forward out of night....
- George McDonald

Often to trust means stepping into unknown, stepping of a cliff or plunging into something that we have no idea where it's going.

But sometimes trust means stepping into a form of "known".

Stepping into a decision you know you need to make. Starting a dream you know is right. Taking that next turn for following Jesus. The night of the uncertain is finished and the day of the decision has dawned.

Many times stepping out of the night is scary for me. There is a certain comfort in staying in the dark. Restlessness yes but a clock of familiar too. Not knowing which decision you are suppose to make. You can't see the scary drops in the dark or the steep mountain.

Light makes them visible.

To trust means to step into the light. To make the decision which lightens the next step, showing the possible goods, bads and scariness of it.

Stepping into light. Trust. Stepping into His light. Stepping into day.

Stepping with Him - Jesus.

January 16, 2015

looking at goals...

Goal setting ... love it? hate it? why?

I love to set goals...finishing them is a different story. Cause usually I set goals that are way out of reach and if I get about half of them completed then I call it good. Laziness plus an overachiever attitude don't make the best combination at times.

What vision do you have for this year? the next 2? or how about the next 5?

What are your dreams? Is there a big dream you want to start working towards?

These are things to consider when setting goals. Knowing your vision and dreams for areas of life helps to weed out things that don't need priority.

What about responsibilities? A job that requires much of you. School. Roles. These affect our goals.

This year I began with many new responsibility. I am developing the vision I want for my home, as a wife, in my work, blogging, hobbies, etc. Now that I am responsible for a home, I have dreams for how I want it to look and feel. I need to put that into vision and then into goals. There's been many changes and will be more but I'm excited to keep on growing in these things.

So here's to 2015. A year of growing in grace, giving myself grace and living it. Occasionally I hope to write some month by month goals, possibly book reviews and other stuff that pertains to this.

Major areas that I break my goals down into... Relationships - with Jesus, with my husband, with others, Personal Growth, Reading, Physical, Finical (i.e. budget/savings), Creativity, Blogging. 

a few examples the overview of how these look...

Reading - after finishing school my reading has greatly suffered due to life so this an attempt to bring it back in. Reading relaxes me, expands my world and delights me. goal: 60 books with diving into many different areas.

Financial - savings goals, monthly budgets, special expenses, etc. (a favorite to way to earn extra income is through swagbucks.)

Creativity - bunching several areas under one name. :) Creativity is art and I need it in my life!
       home projects, music, photography (this area needs a lot of work!)
Blogging - write more. Design the blog and expand my knowledge in the web world.

"You are never too old to set another goal 
or to dream a new dream" - C. S. Lewis


January 8, 2015

hello 2015

a new year...a new journal....a new adventure...


open. (well...kinda...)

This year I'm starting off with a lot of new things. In the last several months there have been quite a few new things in my life - a new name, a new home, new community, a new role, a new job. And this year is likely to bring quite a few more new things. Newness is exciting. Newness is scary. Newness often involves change (something I don't do good at!) and courage.

When I look to 2015, I'm scared but excited. Last year God started a lot of work in my life that has been brutal and shaking. As He tore away my pride and humbled me, He opened my eyes and heart in a whole new way. I look at 2015 in a different way than most years.

My words for this year are "grow" and "grace".

To grow in receiving God's grace and others. To give grace. To grow in giving myself grace. There are lots of dreams things I want to grow in. But this year has the potential for lots more changes and I want to give myself grace. Grace to dream big but to be okay if I don't accomplish it. That I accepted and okay even if my goal list doesn't get done. That I am still just as worthy and good before God.

 Grace teaches us that God loves because of who God is, not because of who we are...Grace means there is nothing I can do to make God love me more, and nothing I can do to make God love me less.- Phillip Yancy

So I'm asking God to let me grow in His grace. To receive it. To delight in it. To give it. To see it. To rest in it. Welcome 2015!